PINK FRISBEE
I was nervous sitting with the sun-tanned girls on that long stretch of hot white sand.
The dog
dipped its head looking impatiently at me with quick glances at the frisbee in
between penetrating periods of staring the way only an animal can. As if it knew
exactly what was going on in my head.
Of course I
threw the frisbee again. He’d worn me down. Of course it didn't matter where I
threw it either. He’d always retrieve it.
In a few
moments he was back with a little bit of the
saliva slipping off the black serrated edge of his lip as he bent
from the shoulder and placed the pink thing again at my feet. The pattern was possibly regenerating
a bad memory, a nightmare perhaps, or even a sad and secret event once buried but unexpectedly dug up.
The sun
glittered on the humble sea, gulls screeched from behind me somewhere, the hairs on
my toes had gone blonde, the marks in the sand were a lost civilisation seen from space.
“How long
will she talk for?” I wondered. “Is she just doing this to make me mad?”
I resisted
but eventually cast the thing away half-heartedly so the dog retrieved it effortlessly
and almost instantly came trotting back warmly with its tail gently wagging presenting another
frisbee-enforced smile. A narrowing stripe ran from his moist nose all the way to the crease between his
eyes. The eyebrows flickered. Very yellow irises looked like the sacred flames in
the temple of all sudden insurrections and the hand holding the flaming torch
was probably mine. I turned to glance back at myself and realised I was seeing out of
that dog’s eyes, watching myself being confused; blonde hair and uncertainty, looking
everywhere at once.
He picked up
the frisbee and threw it again. I sprang to my paws, leapt three times as was my want and snapped it flying through the air. That's what was happening. I was the drunken pilot in an empty plane.
The jagged plastic-to-teeth sound relocated me as I landed back on the sand from where I jindled back, dropped the pink disc at his feet and
stepped well away to focus my gaze.
The next time he threw it almost straight away, without the usual build up, but he threw it like I had seen so many times before that I knew it had only been a matter of time before he would throw it into the sea. Into that huge wet thing which pulsed on the edge but slept on its own dream elsewhere.
The next time he threw it almost straight away, without the usual build up, but he threw it like I had seen so many times before that I knew it had only been a matter of time before he would throw it into the sea. Into that huge wet thing which pulsed on the edge but slept on its own dream elsewhere.
The pathetic little waves were enough to hold me back, not really, but I knew that’s how it would
appear to any of the humans interested in a dog’s welfare. Sure enough, the
life-saver waiting for his friend on the big board flicked the floating disc close enough for me to snap and carry back. Even if he’d moved. Trying to hide. A new
wave had risen since that last throw and this time I was on it. Hounding him to
take a good long look at himself.
What was he
but a fool pushed and pulled and spun like mobiles. To reach and grasp, pull
back, cry, laugh, wait, live or wonder. He knew, always had, but didn’t want to
find the progression from alienation to madness. Nobody mentioned it. A mintie
wrapper blew past. One of the girls pointed at a ship on the horizon. I
scratched the edge of the frisbee with a paw and sat back like the sphinx
examining his state of mind, looking into those holes in his head where the
inside and the outside blend. It was true! He wanted rid of me. I'd seen it coming.
There was no longer time for consideration, the frisbee had been thrown, it was up to me to catch it. To retreive it. But as I flew through the air they were already packing. They were leaving. Leaving me to find another thrower. Every catcher needs a thrower. We all know without it there can be no game.
There was no longer time for consideration, the frisbee had been thrown, it was up to me to catch it. To retreive it. But as I flew through the air they were already packing. They were leaving. Leaving me to find another thrower. Every catcher needs a thrower. We all know without it there can be no game.

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